Not My Plan

Living with my parents, divorced (well almost) and in debt.

Not exactly where I thought I would be at 26. Who am I kidding this is nowhere near where I thought I would be at 26. I pictured myself married, with our own house, working my dream job (dietetics I think?), one child and maybe another on the way. Boy did I get that wrong!! I had the marriage, I had the house. But something was missing. I certainly wasn’t happy.

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And then it all fell apart.

My marriage crumbled, and I moved back in with my parents. Looking back, would I have done things differently? Maybe but maybe not. I made mistakes, ones that I’ll always have to live with. I wish I didn’t hurt the people I did, but I also wish that I wasn’t hurt in the process. A marriage doesn’t fall apart just because of one person, we were in it together. Unfortunately we couldn’t make it work but I know I am happy because of the tough choices we made.

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I wouldn’t be the person I am today without all my mistakes. And I’m pretty happy with who I am. Yes I have things to work on, but we all do. I have quirks, I’m a little crazy, but most importantly I’m happy. A happiness that comes from me. It’s not dependent on anyone else. Yes others may make me happy but I don’t need them to be happy. It’s taken me a very long time to get here. It’s not easy and it’s still something that I have to work at every day but I’m getting there.

After everything is said and done despite not being where I thought I would be in life I know this will work out. I know I will be better because of everything that has happened to me. My life these past couple months have been indescribable. But I have never doubt God’s ability to look after me, love me, and show me his plan. I have finally taken the passengers seat to my life and let him take the wheel. I know that he will be able to take me places I never dreamed of. I have been in awe of his work in my life in this short amount of time. He has certainly removed a lot of things from my life that I never thought I could live without. But I can now see that he was making room for bigger and better things for me.

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I so excited for my life now. I know God has big plans and while I can’t imagine what he has planned. I can see the people he has brought into my life and their amazing gifts. I know that he has placed everyone in my life for a reason. I am ready to start living and giving this life 200%. I’m ready to grow!
I have always had the desire to help people and I believe that the timing of my life and the struggles I have been through have finally out me in the position where I can make a difference in other people’s life. I’m excited for the journey and I’m read to stay others be as happy and healthy as they can be. I’m ready to build a team and make a difference

 

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